Nervousness

(1970 June 1)

At this point I must reveal I haven't been feeling quite as well lately as I have here-to-fore. The trouble is nervousness, my old enemy. Now that I am not so rushingly busy, I have come to feel the silence more and have been very uneasy about my future. I feel as if I am in a bind - always was slow at making decisions, you know ... my neck is so stiff I cannot bend it - just tension and I am disgusted with myself and more than anything having to bother you with it. ... Please do not be too distressed over my nervousness. I have had it before and overcome it.